A reason to..

People change...

I nvr blog for a long time...this blog of mine is getting dustier!

It is 11.54pm( the nite is still young)

I want to read about organic chem....

I hate facebook cuz it makes me sad to read other people status!

My mom wants me to come back Jb b Diwali but I hav mid term on  Monday....I miss her<3

Lets Pray..

Lets pray that everything will be fine..Lets pray that I will hav a happy ending once I finish my college life. I love my family. I want to love myself. I like you my god. I just wish I can be happy like the rest.

Let the god bless me and those I love very much...I love everyone.

Kuno Becker

He is gud looking....I was madly was in love after watching Goal 2...

Here are some of his best to prove it:

 

I wish I was his girlfriend!

Oh, isn't that cute??

wat can I say...He is so hot!

This was when he got a red card....:(

awwwww.....<3<3<3

Just can't get enough of him!!!

His girlfriend in Goal 2!!!

Sweethearts!

Kuno Becker...in case u forgotten the name after seeing all this aawesome pictures of him!

I am still waiting for Mr. Right, I hope he will be like him...Am I asking to much form this??

I know, I DO!!!

Alumini of Amanah. 5 AROMA

These are the people who inspired me to be a better person and now....they are in my heart. I wish someday we will be together but not for the last time.....memories should no fade and so does love...
miss you all but I will never forget...Gud luck and hope I will see you all one day...

It is GOD's Grace...

Yesterday, I got an offer letter from INSTEDT(Institut Sains Dan Teknologi Darul Takzim) to do my diploma in Nursing.I was happy at first but faded once I went through the pamphlet and the fees structure...It was not for me, that what my heart says.I felt something bad and so I just dumped it on my coffeee table.
It was today, around 12, I got and offer letter from Masterskill. The best part was that it came in PosLaju and the deadline for me to summit the application form would be 12May, to be precise it was yesterday!!!

Lol...that is what I can do. If there is one thing I had to do with these people, I will for sure shoot them alive on the middle of the roadway!! Sonds morbid? That is my *point*!

                                                            
Anyway, I knew it long time ago that God has something for me up his sleeves, but He is GOD....it will not be so easy to read HIS mind eh?? Yau thou should know that right?? Haha, but I know he loves me although sometimes he don't when I realised that I didn't get any offer to study but than I realise, I don't deserve it much compared to the good ones out there...I wish them luck although there is some disappointment...
                                                     
Back to the show, does this means, it will be a better offer or <3UCSI<3 to be my choice?
Shall the result to be swift to let go my tense feeling...

                                                

Mother's day...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM....I love you so much and I know I can be so annoying sometimes but I never intended to to hurt your feelings.

Mom,
i wish i could say many things here,
you have been a great mom,
it is true,mom.
I love you

you never had anything for yourself
everything you did is for me
if i had to repay you
I will rather give away my life

you made huge change in my life,
I didn't know how you made it,
i know it was tough
let go you fear mom...

I will help you go though this,
let me help you,
i want to do it,
because I love you

I want to promise you,
I will never want to see your tears,
your is more valuable than mine..

You had enough,
let go the angst,
Let me handle it for you.

I am a girl,
I want to be your warrior,
A warrior,
never fear death,
so am i MOM.

Love me mom,
I will care for it,
gentle touch of yours,
does miracle to me.

One day,
I would want to leave you,
let me be the first before you,
I will be happy,
TRUST ME MOM.

I love you dearly mom.....I wish you HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

HETIC...

TO ALL THE READERS OUT THERE.....



I am please to inform that SCHOOL is gonna reopen on MONDAY. 5th JANUARY 2009!!!! I
wish everyone out there all the best and keep rokin on cuz life is too short cuz high school and U surely will be surprised how much time u have wasted worrying about how well you gonna be among the others in your school!!! I am kindly telling all the students out there to enjoy ur life as much as possible becuz it can never be the same like college life or UNI life!!!

Things u do or say might sound normal when ur in high school but if will be a different story out there!!! There, you will see a bunch of communities to stereotype YOU even if u try to be ur best in whatever things u do!!! However think about the positive side.....and you will meet new FRIENDS from all walks of life and you will be surprised by how small ur knowledge about the outside world and you will start to think more sensibly...

However, one thing that will never change where ever u go!!!.....WHAT IS THAT???
It is nothing big.....HOMEWORK.....of course, hahaha...well u can clearly see that in high school u call it the " H WORD" but in campus it is known as assignments and project work which sound more complicating!!! Y is tat so? Well, in campus assignments are given more importance than in high school....every assignments counts!!! As for homework.....it is merely a practice of a certain subjects given by the teacher so that one can be good at it!
So did everyone gey the idea of being in school? Well, this seems to be very short for me cuz there is so many things going around in high school because high school is all about YOU!!! I really can go branching out life this about school life such as Love life, Financial problems, Stress management, EXAMS, school parties, competitions, Sports Day, and there is just so many thing going around in school...so instead of worrying for the unnecessary things...TRY TO MAKE EVERY SINGLE MINUTE PRECIOUS!!!......YOU WORTH IT !!!( Loreal Paris)

So cherios Boys and Gurls........choice is in your hands.....
LEAD YOUR LIFE LIKE NOBODY!!!


sounds familiar....yes...just to refresh those memories of fear and jitters I had be4 my Form 5......wow.....It is over now and I am relieved...

long lost....yet founded at last

Thank you to technology for bring two hearts closer.Mr.Mark Zuckerberg. Thanks a lot for helping those to stay connected through FAcebook. After all these years from elementary school. Thinking of all the sweet and bitter memories we went together, it made me really how time flies so fast. We were so small and now, look at you...all GROWN UP!!!...


Anneth Alexander...the name I will never forget to the rest of my life.She was like my best friend and she still is. I don't believe in these craps about having only one as ur bff....that was way long ago...it was a ONCE UPON A TIME...now, everything changes...people around us can't be trusted and she,i don't know yet but I still believe she remembers me and all the nostalgic moments we had together...


Aneth wherever in the corner of Philippines... I hope you are happy and I want you to know,there are few good people here to care about u very next to ur heart...

Death of an Innocent

I used to be very hardworking, i like to write down everything that captures my heart like a poem, story or any information that is bizzard or fun to read and till today, I still do that but not very frequenty cuz I realize many starts to call me 'hardworking'. Well, that is not that bad though but quite embarrased at times....This is somthing I wrote down few years back...I am glad I found this piece:



I went to a party mom,
I remembered what you said
You told me not to drink, mom
So I drank soda instead
I really felt proud inside, mom
The way you said I would
I didn't drink and drive, mom
I know I did the right thing, mom
I know you are always right.
Now the party is ending, mom
As everyone is driving out id sight
As I got into my car, mom
I knew I'd get home in one piece
because of the way you raised me,
so responsible and sweet
I started to drive away, mom
but as I pulled out into the road,
the other car didn't see me, mom
and hit me like a load
As I lay there on the pavement,mom
 I hear the policeman say,
"The other guy is drunk," mom
and now I'm te one who will pay
I'm lying here dying, mom
I wish you'd get here soon
how could this happen to me, mom
there is blood all around me, mom
and most of it is mine
I'll die in a short time
I just wanted to tell you,mom
I swear I did't drink
It was the others,mom
The others didn't think
He was at the same party as I
the only diffrene is, he drank
and I will die
 Why do people drink, mom?
I t can win your whole life
I'm feeling sharp pain now, pains just like knife
the guy who hits me is walking, mom
and I don't think it is fair
I am lying here dying
and all he can do is stare
tell my brother not to cry, mom
tell daddy o be brave
and when I go to heaven,mom
put 'Daddy's Girl" on my grave
Someone should have told him,mom
not to drink and drive
If ony they had told him, mom
I would still be alive
my breath is getting shorter,mom
I'm becoming scared
please don't cry for me,mom
when I needed yoy, you were always there
I have one last question,mom
Before I say goodbye
I didn't drink and drive
So why am I the one to die?

All the right moves..

All the right friends and the all the wrongs places, so yeah we are going down!!!~~~
All the right moves and the all the right faces, so yeah we are going down!!!~~~

These lines kinda remind me of my high school times where i was confused about myself.
I was thinking all about what people will think about me and I never appreciated what I had for myself and I was seeking to be the perfectionist in myself that know  when I look back I feel that i was almost a perfectionist who still wonders and was still confused!

do you think I'm special?
do u think I'm nice?
am I bright enough to shine your spaces?


It was confusing to me to as I was growing with the other when I thought I need someone at that time who will make me feel so special but as time passes by, I felt defeated and cheated because I was lonely!

,,,,,(^-^),,,,,

I never been a pet lover in ma lyfe but he who I like to call "MR GRAFFY" is the little cutest thing I have ever see in ma entire lyfe...well not really but isn't he adorable....

Now I am being a real girl...haiyzzzz

dunno how to describe the real cuteness in him....I wish I would say he is mine but unfortunately he is not cuz he is ma sister's!!!!

But that will never stop me from being fond to him even though I really didn't wanna touch him!!!!

BUT NOT ANYMORE.......

Love for Real...

What does that feels like to be in love? How does it feels like when you see him through his eyes, the sensation of being loved? How do you feel when you know he is the right guy for you and you realize somehow both of you are connected? This is sure a good feeling for those 'love birds' out there to explore the true love!!! Our whole life has been a better place for love because we are being loved every single day and night. When we first step into this world, we been loved by our parents and and our relatives, neighbours. After we grew a little, we got 'love feed' by our friends and teachers and when we start our courier, we got some love by our colleges...sometimes but that is really wonderful.The power of love. However the love of the opposite sex is a magical thing!!! I shouldn't say this right in the middle that I never been loved by a guy!!! Then I realize that I am just a teen with some feelings deep inside who wanting to be loved...The sexual attraction between the opposite sex has been the amazing thing...well since nobody knows when this love have been existed! Now you can see the whole lot of love. The desire and the passion is something that will come off naturally when you are in love. Love is a complicated thing that nobody can describe. When you are in love, everything seems to be so magical and sweet. You will feel more beautiful in and out. The world would be like a paradise and you will love chocolates and ice creams even when you are dieting!!! Ever single thing counts when you are in love like telling hi! or bringing soup when she is sick, having lunch side by side together and even better looking deep into the eyes for a moment. Love is a pleasure, a good feeling about someone you love and it is not about gifts or lavish diamond necklace...IT IS ABOUT UNDERSTANDING EACH OTHER WELL!!! LOVE once again is a moment that everyone will experience in their life for once no matter rich, poor, pretty,ugly. I t is the only thing to feel without feeling insecure!!!