dissapointed

It was never my wish to post all the worst and desperating and sad stories in my blog compared to other blogs...

this is my life....hurdles all the way which does not have any end, even if i was to have one...

My life has never been easy and it will never be anymore cuz i lose in faith, the faith that also told me to just move on no matter what happen, i still have tiny bits of hope still hanging which i believe, it will come in handy whenever i need....trust me, I am not the most popular girl or the smarted like the rest in my class, but i am just an ordinary and a very simple girl who will cherish all the moments i have gone through in my life. I realize there is no much time for me. For me to always be happy but I am trying my best....i am still hanging......

Firstly, it is myself that has brought me to this state...Suddenlly when i looked back, i was not like this....NEVER!!! Somethings have changed me, yes it is true.....THEY have changed me, I was a very cheerful girl and i used to get excited for everything but now......i am bored and not interested at all...WHY???

I DON'T KNOW......somebody help me with this

I could not do it myself, i need somebody so that I will have a mentor to carry out my life like the rest of the others...

Eversince that moment that hurts my feeling like a wound that can never be mended no matter what, I hav turned into a whole lot of new person, I simply don't reconise myself anymore...

Will this be forever????

TIME WILL TELL....IT WILL HEAL THE PAIN

This is the time...

This are the dayz that i have been waiting for eagerly and longing for, it was like the best of the all the pleasure i had in my life. I gotta say, I have passed through all the hurdles and pain that I have been digesting for months...

It was nothing much but it wasn't easy either!!!

It was 8 Dec when I really felt much and really relieved after all the works that I hav done for months, at first it was tough but then I was used to it...homeworks, friends who doesnt talk to me, my ego attitude that stop myself from talking to them.It is over now, yes it is over for now that I don't hav to think about it anymore, they ask me whether I miss my friends of not?

At first I felt awkward to answer this question, but I realise I did not miss them at all, I was not surprised..I don't know why...Times when I was lonely, times when I cried myself listening to Arvil Lavigne's 'Keep Holding On'. It was not funny or people might just say that I am sensitive but I know I could not help it...I had to let go anyway

 It was helpless back then when I had to share everything to myself instead of others, it has been a rough journey but I guess, it will be rougher than it alreay is...

                                                      AM I READY FOR THIS???

I guess not, well i am not prepared yet...

Alumini's of SMK SETA 09 (Class of 2005-2009), thank you for all and everything you ahve done. Even when I say i don't miss you....i did not mean it literally. I will still remember you all from time to time, cherishing all the pain and happy moment I had with you friends...You all have been great to me.Thank you everyone.I will MISS U ALL 4EVER