RELATIONSHIPS!!!

Guess what!!!....My life has nvr been this better until last Sunday when I went to Kluang with my mom. Actually it is a co-incidence for me to go there cu I have just return from there and my mom told me she want to visit her bro in Kulai and since my aunt's relatives are in Kluang...i get to meet then as well!!!

I nvr tough siblings, aunt, uncle,grandma of my aunt side as I have nvr seen them before and it was my first time going there, so at first I was quite afraid to see them all because I was afraid they might not recognize me and I was afraid they will not bother me! But I was WRONG!!! They were the friendliest PEOPLE ON EARTH and I really had this very great time that I will never forget in my life!!! They treat me so well and my mom was the highlight of the day! They welcomed her life the most special person. Well at first I was afraid nobody will take notice of her but again I was wrong because they recognize her better than me and I was abandoned again!!!

I very sad but very happy for my mom, well she has never been this happy before and she even told me to come here again with my JB grandmother when I get my driving license! How cool can that be!!!
Then I went to my aunt brothers' house and they are really sport and happening!!! I could never believe with my own eyes. All my assumption abt drinkers were wrong all these time!!! Y? Because all of them drinks and they are really successful and rich!!! All of them have big house and many cars and well- behaved children's except for the toddlers which is the cutest thing I have ever seen!!! I stayed in one of the brothers house and it was fantastic and I was ecstatic like never before!!!
That night WAS SO SURPRISING when I realise I am really from a mixed family of Chinese and Indian! Y? Ever since I was small, I knew I was a chindian because of my grandma but I was not really bothered about that as nobody in my family looks like a Chinese!!! But it is a different story on the other side because ALL OF THEM LOOKS LIKE CHINESE!!! They even have their Chinese name and I was impressed by the way they communicate. They are well versed in both Tamil and Chinese! Isn't that impressive?

The grandma's house was really cool! It was a village and it has air con, and ASTRO, and chicken, turkey, tortoise, frogs!!! How cool can u get? I took some great pictures of all the places but maybe I will displayed it some other time because I haven finish admiring those picture in my own brand new hand phone!!!
Yup!!! That's right, it is my first phone. Sony Ericson's( w850i)~~~not really a brand new phone but it has Walkman and actually bought it on Chrismas Day so it is to early to unlock all the 'secret' in the phone!!! hehehe....

Oh....yeah!!!

phew....NVR BEEN BETTER!!!!

I never realise life would be this good until I stayed in my cousin's house for a week. COUSINS.....are really gr8 especially when everyone of us truly understand each other and try to sort things out even though the time is just not on our side! This particular day has taught me a lot of things which I have been constantly reminding myself to let out whatever you have there. I this is the day when my sista really missed me very much after 1 week of sleepover in her house!!!

We did so many things together and I am telling you.....LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN BETTER BEFORE!!! last Sunday was the day which was very touching for me as I came to realise that I have nobody for myself. Why? My cousins side's family was tremendously HUGE and all I can say for myself is that I have a mom and myself.....it was so sad when I was all alone in a room. I get to see how a 'real family' would look like and I have to say that I am quite jealous and I almost cried because I never had a perfect family like them!!!

But I also realise that TIME IS THE BEST HEALER because all these years, my family was so closely united until it became a war between families and what I can't understand is that, why do We have to hate each other especially when we know that this life is only once and we can't bring anything with us when we Are dead! Why can't everyone just cherish this happy moment together with loved ones instead of fighting among ourselves which brings us nothing but DISASTER!!!

However the best art was when I really find my true connection with someone I felt really connected like nobody before! I saw this small little cute girl when she came to my cousins house for a visit and I thought she must be really pampered and loved by the parents but my thoughts were wrong all of a sudden because she was an angel sent by god for me!!! I realise humans are not perfect and so is she! She very demure looking girl who tries to cheer up everyone and I wish to say this...she is very romantic girl with a sense of care and kindness in the soul!


She really made me wonder if she is really is my sister because she was doing the same the same thing like I love to do! She really had impressed me with her sweet talks and hugs and lovely smile which can really melt away anybody who is young at heart!!! This one week of holidays has thought me valuable lesson which is: FAMILY COMES FIRST!!!

Love for Real...

What does that feels like to be in love? How does it feels like when you see him through his eyes, the sensation of being loved? How do you feel when you know he is the right guy for you and you realize somehow both of you are connected? This is sure a good feeling for those 'love birds' out there to explore the true love!!! Our whole life has been a better place for love because we are being loved every single day and night. When we first step into this world, we been loved by our parents and and our relatives, neighbours. After we grew a little, we got 'love feed' by our friends and teachers and when we start our courier, we got some love by our colleges...sometimes but that is really wonderful.The power of love. However the love of the opposite sex is a magical thing!!! I shouldn't say this right in the middle that I never been loved by a guy!!! Then I realize that I am just a teen with some feelings deep inside who wanting to be loved...The sexual attraction between the opposite sex has been the amazing thing...well since nobody knows when this love have been existed! Now you can see the whole lot of love. The desire and the passion is something that will come off naturally when you are in love. Love is a complicated thing that nobody can describe. When you are in love, everything seems to be so magical and sweet. You will feel more beautiful in and out. The world would be like a paradise and you will love chocolates and ice creams even when you are dieting!!! Ever single thing counts when you are in love like telling hi! or bringing soup when she is sick, having lunch side by side together and even better looking deep into the eyes for a moment. Love is a pleasure, a good feeling about someone you love and it is not about gifts or lavish diamond necklace...IT IS ABOUT UNDERSTANDING EACH OTHER WELL!!! LOVE once again is a moment that everyone will experience in their life for once no matter rich, poor, pretty,ugly. I t is the only thing to feel without feeling insecure!!!

Hmmmmm.....

This has been going for weeks but I just can't make it through...this is very sad. I just could not find the best article or the best things to say in my blog!!! This is very dissapointing for me...well maybe thins will recover soon as I just move with the flow...hahaha. That is the only thing I can hope for now. I might just keep my fingers crossed for some miracle to happen!!!


MAY GOD BLESS ME!!!

Well instead of making big fuss of all the mess I have done, I just want to dedicate this poem to all my friend and those who think friends cames first in their life and respect their friends like a family member...



It has never been fair…
But time is jealous of us
By how close….
We are

But I’m helpless
As a baby
We shared thoughts and love
As a family

I realize life has to go on…
I wish to say many things
But I’ m touched
By the care and hugs
We gave each other

If I made some mistakes
You came to correct me
If I made some cheers…
You came to share with me
If I made some tears
You came to wipe for me

Even when we almost to be apart… let not forget
We have known each other
If you sense my feelings…
I’m deeply hurt
This distance… hurts more
Than I thought
These coming years
Will be harder
To go through alone
All by myself…

But I wish you were here
By my side
Close to my heart
To help me move along
No matter what gets into my way

I will never forget
Hopes and dreams we’ve cherished
Together…
Even when I have to face the truth
I might just cry sometime
Because I’m not perfect

I gotta be strong
Reminding myself
We are together now…
A while
Till death do us apart
Friendship Forever!!!


This particular poem has left a very kind of mixed feeling in my heart becuz I am got to miss my dearest friends next year cuz 2009 will be the last year in my high school. I realise that I have not cherished my high school life fully becuz I am just an average kid who want to have a good time and have alot of friends. I believe that once I have failed that does not mean that I will fail forever.I must realise that I am able to do things which other can do but I just don't trust myself.

I have come across many things in life but I would not call myself as a professional but as an amature. I have failed to communicate and making others happy and failed to score well in life options and I always compare myself with other girls in my standart which makes me lot like a loser.

So do I have to look like a jerk everytime?
This is a tough question to answer but one day I will try to let things lose a bit and I will come back to answer the same question again when I am ready to face the world!!!

Nothing to say.....

Phew........What a day!

The morning went very well eventhough my breakfast sucks.I just some cracker. I hate that cracker cuz they always making me go cracking. LOLZZ. But the evening was kingd of surprising because I almost forgotten that Ineed to go to the temple!!! I was sleeping sounly when my mom woke me up from the best dream ever....hehehe even if I don't remember it now. I am feeling very tired lately...maybe I am not takin the right amount of food. Well, blame myself cuz I am not a priky eater. I just eat whatever is served.

That afternoon, I got ready to go to the temple. My cousin came to pick me up and he brought his friend along. We never talked to each other. I prayed to the god that everone would be happy and nobody would go hungry. Isn't that a good thing to wish for instead of wishing for ourself?

Well, I really pig out. I helped myself wit so much of food and I feel great but a lttle regret cuz I don't want to go fat!!! I have my new year resolution already...it sounds a little stupid but I have made my choices. I am goig to lise weight. I don't get it, my BMI says I am underweight but I feel that I am very fat.I cannot compromise myself that I am healhy becuse when ever I see my friends and my cousin, the have a selvet and fit siluhette!!!!

Maybe they don't overboard like me. But I cannot resist the temptation that I could not eat my favourite food!!! I still remember the incident that happened last year. I went overboard by satisfying my cravings or should I say I try to control my emotions with food!!!

Last year was the worst memories ever!!! I will nvr forget that particular year...NEVER

Holidays...!!!

Holidays are here again just like the same old way......and i'm bored here not knowing what to do.
I realise that I have been wasting my time for no reason....and my problem is that I can go anywhere becaause I am not suppose to....it does not mean that I am grounded xoxox but it a way it sounds so familiar like that!!!


Wat a jerk!!!.....I am describing about myself. Kinda overwhelmed when I see my friends and my cousins get to everywhere they want to go......BUT I CAN'T!!!
I sn't that horrible....hello!!! I am 16 and nvr get to go anywhere....that is a serious problem for me who lives in the city to be exact!!!

However I am not trying to blame anyone here.....maybe I was not meant to go out w my friends but I am still happy because I get to watch my favourite tv programs and chat with my friends and watch my favourite movies!!!

hurray!!!

MY FIRST DAY...

Hello everyone......

I am very proud of myself at this moment because I have done something good and I feel very great about myself now....

This is because I have been wasting my whole time not knowing what to do.....very sad!!!
But not anymore because I am going to blog about everything that I feel I should.....

So far as I know, I have always been trying very hard to telecast my thoughts, feelings, ideas and inspiration for the whole world but I have failed to do so......

I have always been a little scared or maybe a little shy to let out whatever is in my mind....I hope this blog will help me to overcome my fear and help to inspire whoever out there to try everything and not to be afraid of anything....

I believe everyone has their own stepping stones and I hope this will be mine!
Now let me guide you to my world and hopefully to cheer up everyone who views my
blog...

Wishing everyone ' HAPPY BLOGGING'.....
CHERIOS!!!