I am not able to handle...

Now all ends up whether I am going for A- levels or STPM. It is really though beccause I have been thinking all tese while that college would be fun as you are able to dress up and hav a fun time together with your friends, eat in fast food court and chill our with your friends but then I realise my weakness...I am really not good at socializing and I am very sure I will not be able to make it. Lectures, Students affair and curriculum activities which is far more cooler than my high school.

I am not be able to cope with new environment but something surprises me till now. I able to make loads of friends after my primary school but why not now? Things change...I change and I was still acting like a kid not knowing the world is so big and we are merely just actor on the stage... we don't last long in the play, somehow in the end we will be left forgotten and to be rotten in the soil at the end of the day.

Will be able to leave my high school even though it reminds me of homework and will I be able to leave my grandparents here who constantly nags at me? Will I be able to cope when all my close friend drift apart from me? I am weak mentaly and physically...All those moments of happy times together...will be able to see each other again? Shall we still be in a group and talk whatever that cross our mind and never bother whether it makes sense or not?


Will u still REMEMBER ME?


Will I ever SEE U AGAIN?


Will u IGNORE ME?


When can I SEE you AGAIN?



when am i capable of standing TALL one day?

it is what i had in mind...

I knew it long time ago, I will not get but I insisted to check although I knew it is tough and hardly for someone like me to get...

But finally , it came out just the way I thought it would be. I knew it.


Its over....I lose

sweats here and there

As I am writing this blog, I could feel the heat. It not the heat of passion but the heat from our very own the one and only star that is humongous from the rest in the solar system: THE SUN!!!

"Since the sun has a surface temperature 20 times greater than that of Earth, the reradiated energy has a spectrum that peaks at a wavelength 20 times longer than the 500 nm for the sun, or at about 10,000 nm, well into the infrared. Since the atmosphere is more absorptive to such long-wavelength terrestrial radiation, the atmosphere is heated from the ground up instead of vice versa".

I guess nobody would be surprised by the fact THE SUN is seriously makes me 'twinkle'!

As for mean time now, I am still cluless about what is happening around me. I have made my homeworks with the scholarship appliction  and I am waiting...and waiting and WAITING!

I am  currently looking for and A-level programs which is chear comparatively to other colleges in Malaysia. Could someone help me with the facts? 

It is very confusing and I am really hoping for partial scholarship or maybe loans from PTPTN or even better I got a schoilarship from and of the forms I have applied.

I have been checking my inbox for some replies from Sime Darby/ YAYASAN wahtever it is.....But all I got is updates from FACEBOOK which I don't really need it for now especially during this time!

I have no hope for IPTA anymore even worst I don' t think I will able to get a admission in any of IPTA in Malaysia.....

I decided to place my choices for Asasi dalam Pergigian/farmasi/ sains hayat and to my surprise I got to know from a close friend of mine that I would be able to know which university they will be placing me...at first, I disagree for I thought they will not let us to know about which uni we will be placed but she insist me to read the procedure guideline booklet my counseling teacher gave and I was dumfounded.....

IT WASN'T LIKE I THOUGHT:

If I get the admission, I will be placed in UNIVERSITY ISLAM ANTARABANGSA MALAYSIA!!!

I was horrified at first because being a non-bumi means I will be akward and weird to enroll myself in that college. In addition for that I will be facing anew lots of  "culture shook"!!

I had to say this even if Iam quite friendly with my malay friends...I hav loads of good malay friends and we do have fun together bt in this case, I am very curious and doubtful...

help me.....

UNDERGRADUATES....

It has been more than a week after the SPM result were out. Officially, I gotta say no matter wat, I received 7A and 2B.......damn it was horrible compared to my friends who got 8 or more than that.
 It is nothing much now, but gotta prepare myself to apply all kinds of scholarship in and out wherever you are....My lucky gifted scholarship to come. Just gotta hang in there cuz I just believe in  this:

this memorable day I will be having at one time of my life....I am just wating and waiting for some miracle to show up and for one to be cherished and loved again.....


I just wanna believe in something right now. I will always be the same for:

                                             I hope DREAMS WILL COME TRUE...

IS COMING...

2009 SPM, STAM results out on March 11

2010/03/04

KUALA LUMPUR: The results of the 2009 Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) and Sijil Tinggi Agama Malaysia (STAM) examinations will be announced on Thursday (March 11), according to a statement from the director-general of education. The results will be released at schools from 10am on that day, the statement said, adding that private candidates will get their results in the mail.

A total of 165,853 sat for the SPM written examination at 3,569 centres in the country between Nov 18 and Dec 16 last year while 6,920 candidates took the STAM examination at 98 centres between Oct 19 and 27, the statement said. - Bernama

 http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/20100304193609/Article/index_html

zzzzz....

yummmy....it has been few days since I blog, now I am reminding myself that you use to ignore to blog while you were studying but hey now I am keeping myself to blog everyday because it helps to improve my writing skills."wink"...so back to my old story, I am actually getting a little nervous about myself because I think I am geting plump!
Yes, its true, I feel that my jeans are getting tight and I seriously need to exercise...it is time to call the pro's!
haha...maybe, I should be more active and need to reduce the time I sleep and to stop eating all kinda junk food!!
haha....again?
It is getting near....yes, yes.....SPM is coming near and I getting the jitters of how my result gonna look like, I just hope it will be pleasant and I rallyt want to get all A's!
"Help me!"

Alrite....gotta go now....
maybe from now onwards I should keep my blogs shorter...it is very convenient for people to read.....hahaaaa!

GERAM!!!

I purposely name the title in malay...y??
It is just the matter of fact that I felt it will give more impact on how I feel right now....
It all started with driving lesson when I accidently let go the car to movce backwards....it shows how STUPID i was!!! It was alrite if there is no1 around me but there was a boy and he did sumtin that PISS ME OFF!! "HE LAUGH AT HE!!!!"
Fine then, when I come back home, my aunt came screaming at me, Help me with the book renewal thing! I don't give a DAMN abt it cuz I dun care....so I lent her hand, but inside I was like 
....so I don't care!!!!

I gotta say that I got some temper and I LOVE BEING LIKE THAT!